Bike Crash

Saturday was supposed to be our round island 100 km bike. we started out at half past 4 at SE ' s house and to be honest it was an enjoyable ride. We took on the Kaki Bukit Viaduct, Yio Chu Kang, Mandai, Clement and Keppel. We were riding down Nicholl highway with me leading the way and PK, CH and SE behind in that order. At the 84 km mark I was riding in aero when I hit something on the road. It was a moment's lapse in concentration. I veered into the wall on the highway and had to counter correct the swerve into the wall. As luck would have it the correction was probably in excess and I skidded, took a tumble and roll over on my shoulder. another split skin graft except this time on my right shoulder. I rolled over my bike a couple of times and felt the wheel of a bike hit my right scapula and SE's infinit which he has passed to me to try emptied all over me.
I looked up and was stunned to see the whole gang had gone done. PK had somersaulted beyond me and looked a bit dazed. It was only later that we realised he had fractured his left clavicle. Went to CGH and then Gleneagles before ascertaining that he did not need surgery( thank God!)
I think something like that will change your perspective of things. I wonder if the sluggishness this week has something that has changed me mentally. I would say there have been quite a fair bit of negative thoughts, like what if my training is inadequate? or like"who am i trying to kid!? i am not that young anymore". Well i have done little since then except for the sprint aquathalon). I got out of the water with a heart rate of 170 which of course truly wrecked my run. I could only manage 6 min/km and was really tired during the run. The swim was half of what I will have to do in 3 weeks time!
In a way this is pretty much crunch time isn't it. Its where self doubt can creep in and weaken your resolve. where negative sentiments and fear makes you want to retreat and do an about turn. It is the time where i would hope i can dig really dip and examine my heart; it is the time where mental barriers are broken and we know the true limits of our human strength.